For some reason, this has been one of the most difficult decisions of my life. The more I research any of the labs I want to work in, the more I question my goals and how well I am suited to them. I know, part of this is just risk aversion or laziness. I just have to plow through and ignore all of these nagging doubts. Plus, this whole stage of writing about myself in the future tense is going to be over in December, when all of these applications are due.