I am grateful that:
1.) People may be insensitive and may be disrespectful, but I know that it isn’t about me. I’ve done what I can, and I’ve gone as far as I can. It’s good to see reminders of it.
2.) I am growing more insightful. When I feel rejected or when my affections are not returned, I tend to turn my affection into anger and disdain. That is not healthy, and I realize I simply need to move along. It becomes toxic, and it doesn’t have to. Leave and let be, I guess. I need to learn to let go.
3.) I’ve realized that I need to step away and just make myself unavailable to several people. Or at least not initiate conversation. It would be easier to remove the temptation and just be unavailable then. Each time I think “I’ll be quiet today”, I manage to not only initiate contacts, but I go too far. I need to embrace me, not them.
4.) A numerologist gave me the following affirmation: “All that is not for my highest good now fades out of my life and I no longer desire it.” The key is that I know what is not good for me, generally, but I have doubts. Actually, the key to this affirmation is “I no longer desire it.”
I’m so ambivalent!
5.) Chicken Soup. Yum.